Y cant I fucking learn my bloody lesson. Baby is fucking pissed now. He doesnt even wanna tok to mi animre. Further mre he is going for onboard to China sea for 2 days. Haiis. Utterly lost for words. Dun I hv ani conscious at all?! Mabe I am immune to everything le. I used to cry alot. But now..dunno for wad reason I stopped crying when I am sad. I still rmb in Juring Hq Joanne is crying like fuck and yet I didnt even drop a single tear. When I am in great pain after hitting my glass plane, I oso nv cry. Now when I am fucking sad coz of wadd my mum and baby said I nv cry. But my hartt is bleeding profusely. I can feel the sadness inside. I noe tat I'm acting strong outside, but I dunno how long it can last. Mabe my tears are fake. Mabe I am inhuman after all. I realli wan to cry out loud but my tear just fucking dunwan drop. Tis is wadd baby send to mi:

u will nv fucking learn your lesson..cb..u make mi fucking pissed..go and fucking think..when it gets thru ur head then u talk to mi..u wan ur poor mother to fucking die for you then u happy..cb..


Tis is the 1st time baby scold mi so harshly. And it hurts. Hurts like hell. Think he msg Jo and scold her bahx..coz Jo suddenly send mi a msg and saes:

Nxt time dun always b wif mi bahx..It's my fault to let u hv the temptation 2 steal..I jus wanna tel u sorrie..hope one day when we kicked off the habit we become gd fren again..actually I htink tis is wadd u wan if not u wun tell ben everything including tiings we hv done..listen to him bahx..=)

Aight.. I shall listen den. And I shall oso isolate myself from today onwards..nite ppl..


NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND MI ENUFF. NO ONE. NOBODY CAN HELP MI WHEN I CANT EVEN FUCKING HELP MYSELF!

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